Unfathomable Desire

I am a person full of dreams, of determination, of courage and of hope in life. I have lots of plan not just only for myself but also for my family, friends and to those people who surround me. As my journey goes along, I found myself unsatisfied, unfulfilled and bored. It was like a way to nothingness – meaningless at all.

This is the main impetus that motivates me to enter seminary. That was another world for me. With optimism, I solemnly discern in solitude for the true meaning of life. I have that commitment to remain steadfast upon reflecting on that decision of mine. I desired with expectation of fulfilment that taking that road less travelled would bring to a kind of life I wanted to be.

Subsequently, that was my ardent spirit led me to strive hard in attaining such ideals and sustained me to in pursuing that to its maximum capacity. I have my limitations. I do have my strengths and weaknesses. Any of these factors never hindered me to live the dream and desired goals of my life. It seemed a great challenge for me to conquer.

With the situation I had before, I encountered different struggles and crises that tested my chosen decision. Pressures in academics, adjustments in the new community, new system to follow, new habit to get involve and new peers to mingle with were just some of the vicissitudes I was facing that time. Still, with vehemence and perplexed attitude, I faced and willingly accepted that reality-reality where I placed at that moment.

In real sense, we are living in the turmoil arena of the world – our world. Ironically, its complexities might sometimes lead us to the cessation of amelioration. But, change is the only constant in its system. Change is the mother of improvement, of idealism and of aiming for the highest peak of man’s imagination. Take a glance in your surroundings now. From a juvenile mind and primitive way of life that mad had before have attained and enjoyed the state-of-the-art technology that we have today – the result of change.

The masses fear the intellectual but it is stupidity that they should fear if they realized how dangerous it really is. This dictum gives an account that discourages mediocrity. Mediocre people are contented already to be in their comfort zones. They want their life to be as it was like stagnant water. They don’t want to explore and speculate the world. They are afraid to discover new things that could uplift their status. Playing safe is the best description for them hiding on their own shell. Mediocrity is a sin according to one author. It imprisons you to the ground of failures, indecisiveness and doubts of everything that surrounds you.

It is indeed that being curious and wonderer of all things around us are the best characteristics of human being and of being human. As the dictum presented that we should fear stupidity rather than the intellectual. Just think of this, “Little knowledge is dangerous.” So, be cautious, moderate skeptic and do not be afraid of knowledge and learning. We should not be contented with the average. We should go beyond from it. Free yourself to soar high in the vast horizon of opportunity and learning.

Personally, I do have some kind of decision that reflects on the said statement. I live my life even before to its fullest. I did not have any reservation. It was the greatest learning that I gained from my beloved father. I salute him for moulding me as what I am now. Being competent, have courage always to level up oneself, make most of the time to worthy and quality activity and don’t forget to enjoy are just mere lessons I always used to evaluate myself at the end of the day. Before, I was his shadow. But when he passed away, I am already in my independent being leading my way to my deepest desire guided by those virtues he taught to me. As a result, I decided to go back in school. It was a challenge for me. But the good thing was, I will learn, discover more and experience more. That was I am looking for. Thus making our life be fulfilled with endless learning and experiences – aiming to become above average. Other said that I was either demoted from my status of left back what I’ve built up for six years. I begged to disagree with them. I am looking forward as it was a promotion for me. It was difficult. However, it made me fear of stupidity.

Since stupid people always think they are right. They are pretender to be knowledgeable. AND I AM NOT STULPID. I will continue to dream and believe that I can survive - making each gift given in me to utilize to its maximum and efficient output. This thing is an accolade intended for each and everyone of us to have. I am hoping for a bright star that will shine in the midst of darkness.

I’d like to end up my reflection with this passage. “If you correct conceited people, you will only be insulted. If you reprimand evil people, you will only get hurt. Never correct conceited people; they will hate you for it. But if you correct the wise, they will respect you. Anything you say to the wise will make them wiser. Whatever you tell the righteous will add to their knowledge. (Proverb 9:7-9)” So be wise. This is my desire. Beg for knowledge; plead for insight. Then, you will grow. ©